Thursday, October 27, 2011

Raw Gossip & Gush / "Girl With A View" Daily Digest

Today: 

Ahh much better. 
I can't believe how much better I am feeling and I THINK it's the Vega vegan protein drink thingies .. and a little more sleep a little more exercise (just a little mind you) and also my body always thanks me when I eat light, even if I eat a big bowl of it. :-) Might be the massages I've been getting, also. 

(And the B12 which my Coach Dave the Raw Trucker emphatically suggested when I had nooooo energy etc etc).

 
My sister extraordinaire, Kim Cummins, the ever and still "inspiring2act," Lori Painter of www.LifeByLori.com and me. Okay, would you believe that Kimmie works around the block from Lori? Yes. Okay so listen, Lori is leading an Emotional Fitness Challenge right now. November will be an Intuitive Challenge to DO NOW all those quirky but great things your own inner voice keeps getting drowned out trying to tell you. Time to listen. 
Her family thought she was absolutely nuts. Lori told us about that time in her life when she was initially tuned majorly into Intuition. The voices in her head had her lighten up her household clutter by about 80%, she lightened up her body clutter to the total cutest (see super cute bikini pic here) and even avoided freeway collisions by listening and not procrastinating to her Intuition. It's a literal voice which caused her to write books at 3am ... Both my sister and I immediately knew we have our voice also and could recall, unfortunately, ignoring it in recent past. My (this) blog will follow Lore's intuitive challenge--watch her get her own intuitive groove on--as well as December's Give It All Away Challenge ... this is when you (and I) get the zen house we always wanted but were too chicken to toss the junk out.






You've got to be teachable. Ask me, I'd have told you I don't need Dara Dubinet's Liquids Only DVD because I'd argue I know it all. Wrong! I LOVED her simple soup recipe using basically carrots, water, coconut oil and a top secret ingredient that I had never laid eyes on in my life!!! Incidentally, I made this in a low-powered blender so it never really got creamy as we all know a Vitamix will do. Yet, it was still deemed delicious and disappeared by the anonymous tastees onhand.
 
The charismatic Dave the Raw Food Trucker who released over 200 pounds while driving truck, myself and the handsome AND talented Chef Francisco at www.AmeRAWcanBistro.com I think they make the best bruschetta. I think the delicious Ecopolitan needs to lay off the balsamic and some of the onions ... If I recall I really liked the wheatgrass, the kale chips, the raw pizza, the different breads were unique and impeccable.
 ""...I am willing to do that even if I never meet someone again who begins to match what I had, then I will write forever memoir after memoir and poem after poem about Mr M. I will write songs to him and create collages and drawings in honor of the love we had. That's okay. I am willing. And that willingness is what is setting me free to LIVE again. It's setting me free to be happy. It's setting me free to be a good mom...."
Dan the LifeRegenerator was such a high vibration that all the children used him as a human jungle gym during our dance party at the Third International Juice Feast Day. He also spun around on the floor in quite an impressive show of coordination and litheness. (See this in the video at bottom of  this page.) It was my very first time to meet him and he is just as real as his videos portray. That IS the real him. His daughters were absolutely clear lights shining on this planet. I am now a shameless fan. Shown here: the studio which has a stellar hot reputation for parties--Urban Lights--which Bill Barlow rented for our impromptu greeeeeeen juice extravaganza which was open to the public and catered by Thrive ... also Chef Cher Til made me very happy when she made sunflower seed "refried beans" yes!!!
The Raw Brahs lit up the entire energy of the greeeen party, the documentary, the dancing AND the Third International Juice Feast Day in Seattle, September 2011: l to r: Daniel "Danimal" Eisenman, Nathanael Eisenman, me and Timothy Eisenman

Lucky me--Yay!--with Penni Shelton of www.RawFoodRehab.com I was an original guinea piglet at the Mansion and am in her book Raw Cleanse ... today her online community boasts over 7,000 members. She told me and Bill Barlow at Dinner at Chaco Canyon that "Cindy has been under the radar too long. It's her time to shine." Penni ate like a bird. But she ordered one of each for everyone to share at the table. She seemed to inspire guys with flexing biceps wherever we went. :-)
Bill Barlow knows how to think on his feet and throw a HOT PARTY!! (And don't miss his next one!) Yes, after the documentary shoot for Dave the Raw Trucker's International Juice Feast Day in Seattle, Barlow merely rented the entire Urban Light Studio for a greeen juice fest which was broadcasted by invites to the entire population of Seattle and surrounding areas: (Aw shucks you have to see me in this vid massaging the Raw Brah's fine bods towards the end...) Such a partyin' gentleman!!! His life celebration is in Los Angeles next month, no expense spared... You will have to search for The Rawprincess on Facebook to see the pics of me on his lap. He was an innocent bysitter but didn't put up much of a fight.
 
Ms Painter ordered the avocado salad on mixed mesclun greens. I had the side salad as Au Lac was my  next destination. Lori carries the book Power Vs Force in her bag--which has the words "United Nations Advisory Board" on the side (or something like that.) The bag was a gift to her by some famous person. Lori also travels light with her iPad and a portable keyboard. She's all about Lightening It Up. She wore adorable blue jeans and a tank top with just a touch of make up. My sister, Kim wore a Hawaiin print fitted dress and ordered the fruit salad with yogurt. Lori and I agreed there was no judgment on Kim's choices.

I made a cacao hempseed mylk in the blender out of what I can find onhand, you know me. In this case that means coconut oil was involved.


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Today:
Ahh much better.
I can't believe how much better I am feeling and I THINK it's the Vega vegan protein drink thingies .. and a little more sleep a little more exercise (just a little mind you) and also my body always thanks me when I eat light, even if I eat a big bowl of it. :-)
Might be the massages I've been getting, also.

Today:
qt water
smoothie: pear, bananas, Vega matcha, chia gel .
kale, mixed greens salad w/ red bell pepper, carrot and avocado ... grapes/oranges.
plan: chocolate Vega more grapes, green tea
Later: who knows, the sky is the limit.

Editors Note : 11:30pm Ended up working OUT FINALLY A FOR REAL WORKOUT HONESTLY!!! The rest have been so wimpy for sooo long! I am so excited. I did it! I have depended sooo much on Mr M and now I finally have got a taste of being close to myself. I realized during the Sacred Feminine Intensive Live Chat tonight that I can stay very close in the present moment to myself and what I'm feeling... also your posts today (I had started this post in the morning and kept adding to it all day long until now it's late at night.) your posts about having anxiety but that eating doesn't help it. ... And I realized that staying very close to my somatic resourcing--it's as simple as noticing the sensation of the edges of my skin and how the weight of my gravity feels, and how the sensation of my clothing feels touching my skin ... and then loving that sensation and loving the robotic habit of reaching for something to eat instead of reaching to participate in my life.


I ended up having a few bites of the cacao bliss in a jar. I had some coconut water and a tsp of goji trail mix before my workout. I ran 1.6 miles in 20 minutes, I lifted weights for 15 minutes ... dead lifts  and lunges with 20lbs in each hand, then arms ... I feel great. I spent a bunch of money. I really got what I wanted because I had the cash and decided I need to make some money somehow for the attic now. It's a little complicated. I decided to blog publicly on my spending while I'm also blogging on the fitness challenge.

I am grateful for the recovery here ...
I am grateful for my progress!!
I am grateful for agreeing to meet D.A. for coffee soon. He has been inquiring about me to Mr A since five months ago and we said no. But now I'm realizing that the distance with Mr A is quite a lot and I really genuinely was excited about D.A.
I am grateful LE was a little more confiding in me in his last message.
I am grateful that his slow responses alert me to his attitude--which is not eager enough for my liking.
I am grateful I got another massage today and I think I'm feeling better.
I am grateful for the new moon in Scorpio.
I am grateful for the live chats on the Sacred Feminine Intensive 101 ... and the closeness today with the girls.
I am grateful I think I will actually stop by the gym tonight after work.
I am grateful I'm bringing my manager brekky tomorrow.
I'm grateful for my WORKOUT!! Yipeeee. I'm grateful for a couple of young athletic guys who want to run and workout with me, that's very cool.
I'm grateful that their attention really gets me motivated and I feel I must keep my word when I say I'm really working out today.
I'm grateful that I'm going to be serving at a High Protocol Dinner the Saturday after this.
I'm grateful for Tera Warner's Body Enlightenment summit which is Soooo Cool for girls like us. She so gets it!!! I love her summit but I haven't joined it, not sure I'm going to be able to choose that, due to time commitment and due to finance choices.

God/dess today you have reached through to me and given me myself back. I feel myself loving myself and being willing to pay attention and be here with me. I felt myself being ever so sensitive as I am. I felt myself cry hard because I didn't know what to do about never having been loved as intensely and as deeply and as closely and as dramatically as Mr M loved me. But I told myself I have to let go of my selfish grief now. I don't want anyone to misunderstand this. This is healthy for me. I don't want anyone to say, "Oh but Cindy you need to grieve yadda yadda..." because I HAVE BEEN grieving and it has become wallowing. I actually realized that I HAVE TO BE WILLING to be of service on this planet REGARDLESS of whether I EVER find a Love as intense and as beautiful as what Mr M and I shared. I AM WILLING NOW, right NOW to be there for my kids and my mom and my sisters and my nephew and my clients and Mr A. and I am WILLING to listen to my INTUITIVE voice and DO what it says.

I am grateful for the glimpse that being willing to simply BE with things just the way they are and to simply LET GO of the pain I'm holding because I'm So Afraid of letting all the way go of Mr M. But it's TIME to let go of Mr M. He deserves to be happy and to get on with his life. It is TIME for ME to let go of Mr M because I have left him and all I'm holding so tightly to is my own pain which is  NOT going to love me, is only holding me back.

I can see a vision of myself loving myself. I can see a vision of myself taking care of myself I can see a vision of myself being content like a cat by the window in the sunlight, and I can see a vision of myself paying attention to myself and thereby being present for those I am in service to. I can see LOVE bigtime in that.

And I am willing to do that even if I never meet someone again who begins to match what I had, then I will write forever memoir after memoir and poem after poem about Mr M. I will write songs to him and create collages and drawings in honor of the love we had. That's okay. I am willing. And that willingness is what is setting me free to LIVE again. It's setting me free to be happy. It's setting me free to be a good mom.

That willingness is setting me free to face this moment without my mouth full of food.


Dave the Raw Food Trucker saved his life by releasing food addiction, following two students advice and juicing for almost a year, losing 200lbs and reversing fourth stage colon cancer, diabetes, his kidneys were leaking proteins and failing ... You can read his juicing secrets in his e-pamphlet coming soon!

Below: I'm dancing it up to Tom Jones at the greeen juice party and video for NEXT YEAR'S JUICE FEAST DAY below!!! Hey Colonics Party too!


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