Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Let's Get Personal, On Being A Princess, Help Me Fix the Attic ...

Dear Reader,

I sense Rawprincess Studio blog going through a metamorphosis. It has been an easy blog for the past few years. I had previously been doing longer and more involved posts for my Listening For Change site. After some big family changes, I decided to pull back on my time commitment and just photo blog on my raw foods routine.  Occasionally I'd do posts.

Meanwhile I've been on a women's email group with a format which propels my creativity!

You post your food plan for the day (or what you already ate.)
A gratitude list
A prayer
A thought for the day.

Things became rather interesting on this email and I ended up broadening my email group to others who message me saying they love it!

As a result, I'm finding it's time to share differently with the people I have in my life. It is time to move my daily gratitude list and prayers to Universe to my Rawprincess Studio blog.

It gets more personal sometimes. It gets a bit raw and real. *laughs* (That is, depending how brave I find myself that day. ~smiles~)

Nonetheless, here in blogsphere we realize you gotta do your thing and put it out there.

What gave me a clue? The following sentence was written in my draftbox a few days ago and has been left, neglected and hanging. It is what made me realize that the things I REALLY want to talk about, I've "stuffed" so NO MORE!

Absolutely all I want to discuss is how good apple, celery, ginger and lemon juice is. Especially with the vibrant green celery.
Apple, celery, lemon, ginger, garlic: Day 10 Juicing
That "absolutely-all-I-want-to-talk-about" sentence alerted me that there may be something amiss in my perception of what I'm supposed to be writing about! Yes, it's time to move forward. This blog is now integrating!

Here goes. I'm in Portland, Oregon, now and moved back here in February. I decided not to marry my Fiance. We were living in Minneapolis / St Paul. I had been with him for almost five years. This was a big step and I'm still getting used to it. If you can call getting used to loneliness a "habit".

But, what I'm getting at is the picture below of myself and my daughter is what it's all about. I just couldn't live long distance from them any longer knowing there is still over five more years for her to get through high school and just seeing her in the summer and holidays was not enough.

Now for the rude shock.

Since I've been back to Portland I hardly ever see my kids! Yes, and they live here! One of the reasons at first was I was working all the time and didn't have a car. Now I have a car but I'm still working all the time. I can afford to take SOME time off so now we come to the next creative challenge. I don't have much space!

Yes, BUT I am very excited about the potential at the place I live. It has an unfinished attic.

A client has graciously agreed to safety the flooring and finish some drywall installation. That should be happening over the next few weeks. That's step one.

I want to create a place where my two youngest kids can enjoy bringing friends over and hanging out.

I will keep my dehydrator running with cheezy kale chips and macadamia macaroons and chocolate chip Andy-doodles at all times so they will have delicious snacks of the raw vegan variety. I will create avocado chunks with Namu Shoyu (Zeke's favorite) and carrot juice.

And then of course, I WILL let them run down to the Goose Hollow promenade for a meal of their choice as well.

To Help: My just released ebook "Rawprincess Rituals and Rants" is a great read, packed with info on colon cleansing, the liver flush, believing in your body's natural healing process and my spiritual and creative musings. Your purchase will also help me fund my attic refurbishments.

S. and me at my Mom's this summer.
So, this post is the beginning of sharing in a more detailed, relaxed way on my Rawprincess Studio happenings. I live a raw vegan lifestyle. Today I am on day 12 of a juice protocol. It's almost considered a "feast" but I need to up my juice intake. It's been hovering around 2-3 quarts which hasn't been very energizing. I need to up it to at least four quarts. I hope to do that today. Or at least get set up for tomorrow to be so. I have a trip to the store I need to do.

My beautiful daughter Sophia, shown above, has designed the Rawprincess Studio and the Skylight Massage logos. I thank her for that. (shown below.)

Next you will see the entrance to Rawprincess Studio. My cool gnome always watches out for me on the porch. Here he has wandered to the sidewalk to see what all the fuss is about.

Entrance to Rawprincess Studio and Skylight Massage, Portland, OR
Rawprincess Studio is a place of my heart. I always thought I could never be a princess until recently I realized of course I can! So now I am a princess and it truly is a lot of fun! I realized we are goddesses and princesses and that's just the way it is. We ARE the sacred feminine. I'm in an online class right now with a spiritual evocateur and dear friend Namaste Moore. (Link is to her academy main site.) As usual I thought I'd heard it all and wasn't expecting much inspiration. Ha ha. Was I ever wrong.

You know how someone can just phrase something a certain way and it just goes bang! and opens up a dormant seed inside your heart? Well, something about the way she kept saying "You ARE the sacred feminine!!!" really got to me and it has delightfully touched me with the soothing fingers of the spirit for days now.

My self-care last night would not had happened if I had listened to the lonely recording in my head. "You're sad you need to go DO something!" Well, I actually was tired and I asked myself what would I do for me if I were completely in love with me in a good way and if I were completely going to just listen to my inner self and be present for myself. I ended up stopping at the drug store for a hot water bottle (for my hot abdominal castor oil packs see my ebook here.)

And I also got some epsom salts.

I don't usually get sore arms due to my high alkaline greeeens diet and regular exercise, but I DID get sore arms after lifting weights which I wasn't built up to yet. I guess grasping the free weight was what caused a bit of a sprain. At least that's what I think happened. It also could be I need more calories in general so I'm working on exploring that. I hope my chlorella tablets arrive today. It's been hard to be out of them for a week almost.

Anyways, I got the epsom for the soak and the hot water bottle (my other one popped, geez! who likes wet feet in the night? :-)) and went home.

Sure enough I was able to soak and then go to bed with my hot pack. I slept in this morning. I'm still puttering in my robe and need to shampoo my hair. I'm actually beginning to feel a little behind since I have--well, what do I mean a LITTLE behind or what do I mean ACTUALLY behind--yes I have a LOT to do.

But I find, also, that if I don't just take time to be human, to be the feminine, the princess, the girl and to play in my creativity, and to reach out for no particular reason, that the REST of my day feels like drudgery! The last thing I can bare is that drudgery. :-)

So I played my guitar. I'm continuing to practice a song that downloaded from the ethers. It's called "I Can Feel You Now" and soon to be shared on YouTube. That's on my to-do list, get a flipcam tripod/ stand so I can record myself singing and also share tips and recipes easily.

You'd think. I've had the flipcam since last Oct and it really is a must to have the stand for it.

Below please find the logo daughter did for Rawprincess Studio.
 
Sophie Ganschow 2009

I have some things about me that are a little unusual. I should have a sort of reference post describing my life structure but I don't. It will just be found randomly amongst my daily entries. I have a Protector. A friend who looks out for me since I've become single. If someone wishes to date me or spend time with me who has romantic intentions they need to contact Mr A.

Well, I happened to have had a very talented photographer contact Mr A and wanted to shoot me. Plus he expressed interest in me personally. I loved his images a LOT. And I also liked HIM. But when Mr A replied and asked for references, he backed out. And sent me a message containing some sentiments that a third party would mess things up. As you might imagine I felt devastated and had a big cry.

But Mr A had his theory about this and I saw the messages between the two of them. I don't think someone who had been serious about me would have been spooked off by that. Soon after the cry I was able to feel the support of the Universe / Mother and Father God. I knew that my best interest was at hand and that all would work out the way it's supposed to.

Yes, I would love to have gotten to know LE. Yes, I would have loved to have some exquisite photographs of me by LE. But alas, that is not to be. This or something better.

Have a very sweet day. Please gently add more plants to this day and take a moment to smile. It creates a hum, a singing in the silent ethers that we all get to suckle upon.

bliss~cindy

Skylight Massage at Rawprincess Studio, Portland, OR

Today:
apple celery parsley lemon ginger juice w/ garlic (qt)
bell pepper tomato parsley celery juice
bee pollen, spirulina / chlorella
looking for some fruit for a quantity of fresh fruit juice

I am grateful that I am feeling my feelings.
I am grateful LE requested a photo shoot fm my Protector
I am grateful LE is decades of modeling / pro and wanted me
I am grateful my Protector screened him
I am grateful even though it hurts that LE then declined due, apparantly, to the third party complication
I am grateful I allowed the softness of the tears of disappointment to fall heavily and sweetly in my studio
I am grateful I texted Protector who has a theory on this ...
I am grateful I pause to let settle, without sending message to LE which states "I am sad you withdrew your offer .."
I am grateful that every superstar opportunity is not urgent.
I am grateful the Universe has better plans
I am grateful for my body and that I AM the sacred feminine
I am grateful for my home and resting within
I am grateful for my clients and the helpers' magic in the treatment room
I am grateful for the simple wisdom and training to tap / sit into Source which flows to client's health & well-being
I am grateful for magic which is alive and afoot
I am grateful for wanting fruit
I am grateful I ran the past two day in the morning
I am grateful my daughter texted and wanted to spend time with me


I ask Great Spirit for flow, to get out of the way for my childrens' space her to be created. I ask for the helpers and guides to assist my inexperience in upgrading to the next levels for music, home coaching, ebook production and marketing, sponsorships sought for Best of Raw 2011. Paying off debts and seeing my family. Turning P's possible move here over to Great Spirit. I trust I like his smell. God/Goddess the person, as they hug me, their smell. It is primary. Guide us to the meeting. Bliss to JK in SF and his new job. Helpfulness to Mr M whom I know I will freak out if he doesn't remember my birthday. I thank for the sales of my ebook this month, how joyous. I thank for the job offers I ask for space and time. I ask for friends and hugs and chill. Iask for listening exchange and deep healing. I ask for strength and resource. I ask for rejuvenation and eyesight restoration. I ask for occupy to succeeeeeeeed. Amen Blessed be. thank you for namaste and M.O. ... if it be your will may I find flow in organizing for their workshop.

I thank you I woke up sober today. And that I am willing to rest and feel my feelings today not stuff down with foods and eating. It feels suffocating at times. I haven't even gotten to the vibrational sense of it yet. Day 12 Juicing and the difference between this and many other times I've done this is I've had absolutely  no fats at all. Usually I take a few spoons of hemp oil or coconut oil. I plan to add this soon, but wanted the internal complete rest from oils ...I am grateful for the ten day coaching with Q and his group. I thank you that both Dave the trucker and Andy are available if I want a coach for furthering this.
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