Monday, December 26, 2011

Christmas At Rawprincess Studio

A business meeting with Laura Fox is like none other you can possibly imagine. She did a powerful cord cutting impromptu ceremony on me complete with razor sharp insights; she immediately saw the precariousness of my entire home's feng shui and facilitated a freakin' magic carpet ride (or was it a space ship?) with me and co-Best of Raw peeps before we even set our intentions for Best of Raw 2011!!! *squeeee* and this has been life changing for me. My home is halfway transformed! PS I'm the go-to girl for your business sponsorship of this year's shenanigans!
 “Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more ...and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.”
- Mark Victor Hansen

Introducing my NEW meetup group! Weekly juicy bliss and monthly overnights. Follow and fan Andy Williams with me the Year of Juice!!! Rawprincess Studio is a trigger-free zone. Read more PDX friends! :-)

As I create sacred space here in the stillness at Rawprincess Studio I find the clutter is emerging from deeper and deeper layers. As I release all that is not my soul's calling and willingly release mistaken identities and beliefs, my own power from deep inside is literally being pulled up and out. Until I am turning myself inside out. I have suspended yoga slings called Om Gyms here. I have space to do yoga. We have trees and a trail to Washington Park and on into Forest Park. We are doing a monthly sleepover with greeeeen juice and smoothies. This is a food-free zone for 2012. The only chewable things here are and will be chlorella tablets and bee pollen. It is a trigger-free space, safe for everyone who is stepping outside of emotional and addictive eating. It is a safe place to drop down to the floor and stop all the rushing around and avoidance. Listening Turns is a process I use along with Listening Hands: both non-agenda, non-invasive ... Reiki is here, the "Ray" as well as in-depth healing arts menu. I've started Rawprincess Studio as a meetup because I am enjoying surrounding myself with believing mirrors for eachother now. The fans of Andy Williams' Year of Juice will gather here and juice all year together. Weekly juicing, energy yoga, self-body reflexology and astrology self-awareness body readings will all be luxuriously utilized on the mats of Rawprincess Studio beside the large oak trees of SW Market Street just where it has become Market Street from SW 14th. Recap: Weekly juice support and listening turns. (Dates TBA) Monthly sleepovers with yoga, juice, body-rollers / back care.

Very Merriest of holidays to all of you with love from Zeke, Cindy & Sophie at Rawprincess Studio in Portland 2011!
Deck the halls with red bell peppers ... and a carnation or two.
today's lovely droplets fm cindy :-)
For today:
Have a blissed, blessed holiday season -- wishing everyone lots of love with family and friends. Thanks for your thoughtful wishes here!

Just for Today: In a very positive and pro-recovery way, I am being called to do a liquids only protocol.

hot tea
apple juice with Colon Care
At least 1 qt of green juice
hempseed latte

I am grateful I had time to really just hang out for solstice last night.
I am grateful I'm going to pick up my two youngest children in an hour or so.
I am grateful I got my tax refund so I have rent for Jan as well as Dec.
I am grateful that I continue to remove more clutter from here and make sacred space for living.
I am grateful that I AM ENROLLED in PSU for winter term.
I am grateful that even though I have no idea yet what classes or what schedule that will be, I am confident if it is meant to be that I will be able to work it out with my massage job and things will work out just right for both my income, my studies and my family.
I am grateful that I notice how terrifying it felt to have money in my account yesterday and how I had to really just be still with it and receive.

God/dess I ask for your help and guidance with my budget and desire to fix up Rawprincess Studio both for my children to hang out and also to take the next most key steps to create a retreat-like setting here which will be of service and generate income.

Please help me soothe and take care of my digestion today and to step in sync with nature's rhythms. Help me to tap into my own inner harmony and to focus on self-care. I am enjoying finding the right place to get a check-up now. I am enjoying new running shoes and fresh work pants now. I am enjoying time with my children and helping to provide the optimal healthy loving space for them over these next few days now. I am enjoying a balance between structure and limits for them and playfulness and whimsy now.

I thank you Higher Power that much of the grief of letting go of Mr M seems to be processed today. The interesting awarenesses and willingness to awaken and become self-empowered are returning. I am grateful that I am willing to open my  mind to the purity of spirit I know I must have in order to be an effective healer. I am grateful I am forgiven for where I may have been confused. In the confusion I always wanted what was right. I never meant to harm myself. I never meant to lose my own soul. I've always meant to live within a deep sense of devotion and commitment to the Beloved.

I am grateful that the whole holistic picture of my offerings is coming into focus now.

Thank you so much Universe for the truly miraculous timing that I do have money for this weekend. Even though I KNOW the focus isn't to be money. Guide me to serenity and peace that I may enjoy this beautiful time. Guide me to make the best choices possible for me and my kids this weekend.

Mid-process of clearing shown above in this video from last week. Look for updates and don't miss then next exciting episode from the Let's Get Personal Series by Cindy ... enter your email in the right sidebar for VIP style notifications. I will never abuse your email.

Monday, December 19, 2011

Great Gift: Rawprincess E-book for Bikini-Bod & Spirituality Plus Massage Gift Certificate Blow-Out & Extra Free Bonus Foot / Energy Treatment

I've once again texted the publisher for a discount offer for you now.

$9.95 gets you into the Rawprincess Rituals and Rants extraordinaire: instant download; just print it up and put in a notebook. ... The cover is the same picture as my blog header of me with the cake. Great color photos throughout as well. Recipes for kid and caveman friendly smoothies, candy balls, desserts, all-palette pleasing salad dressings and pate's ... Work-out regime for toning the thighs with before-and-after bikini pics of authoress Cindy Cummins.
Recipes Galore such as green savory soup in Rawprincess Ebook ...

Also, don't miss the steal giveaway $25/hr gift certificates for an hour of luscious-you bodywork in Portland, OR. Easy paypal button on top right-hand sidebar says "Buy Gift Certificate".

I can email the certificate or give you a hand-drawn lovely certificate in an envelope tied with a lavish gilted bow.

And if you purchase either of the above today I will personally add a mini-foot reflexology treatment with no expiration date. This treatment will have Reiki and Biodynamic Craniosacral elements and also will have no time limit. I will work on your feet until I feel you are complete for that sitting. So it could range from fifteen minutes to over an hour.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Luscious You: And Here Is My Gift

"Goddess Protect Children"
 Imagine yourself at Rawprincess Studio ...

a haven where you can retreat and totally relax and rest. Tell me which of the below listings most speak to what you know you need right now? Comment in the comment section or email me directly at cindy at skylightmassage dot com for a free gift (see end of post).

Skylight Massage at Portland Saturday Market
 Luscious-You Products and Services
rawprincess bodymind spa services by sea
  • biodynamic craniosacral w/ shiatsu, polarity, reflexology and deep tissue/sports as needed. Receive on a fleece-padded and warmed table in a heated, dimly lit room. Therapeutic. Licensed #11683
  • far infrared facial w/ organic serum treatments and acupressure facelift (includes foot & hand reflexology)
  • dry brush and salt scrub (you keep your own brush) 
 fitness, chakra-balance detox and pain-relief coaching
  • Rawprincess Energy Yoga Instruction, individual and group classes.
  • Rawprincess Maxie Backsie, Om Yoga, Rebounding Coaching-- the ultimate in being pain-free.
  • Dry Brush instruction and dry brush purchase
for living nutrition
  • fresh pressed greeeeen juice (kale, celery, cucumber, lemon, ginger and optional touch of apple)
  • greeeeen smoothies (sweet or savory with salt & pepper)
  • chocolate elixirs including Love Truffles (maca / shilajit, packaged to-go).
  • herb teas
  • Spirulina Balls and bulk Green Mix (the very best highest quality fresh spirulina mixes).
  • Master Cleanse drink and coaching
  • Monthly group coached gallbladder and liver flush protocols w/ pre-flush colon cleanse
In-House Monthly Sleepovers and Demos 
  • These will be juice and smoothie and elixir only sleepovers for high energy. Enjoy! Music, ecstatic dance and open mike or just laughing and relaxing. 
  • In 2012 we offer in-house film screening of the raw vegan lifestyle documentaries "May I Be Frank" "Simply Raw" "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" Bring your own sleeping bag. Applicants must be invited and approved.
  • Guest speaker Dave the Raw Trucker will share how he lost 230 lbs on juices.
  • Once a year raw vegan feast class and annual potluck at RS. 
misc rawprincess products and services

  • Rawprincess Rituals and Rants beauty and spiritual guide ebook
  • How to Serve Men: a Sacred Guide by sea (soon to be released ebook) pre-order
  • Afghanistan Art: rugs, very large sleeping cushions, prayer rugs and salt lamps

Daily Digest: Girl With a View Series

My dearest lovelies and angels;

Please reply directly to me. Do not hit "reply all" for there is a blind-copy list here today as well.

cindy<3 <3 <3

I will post the earlier post last: 

As I pitch out the useless my new owner slipped and drifted off my iceberg.
As I take this baby finger and scratch through the hole in the avalanche I'm pinned in ...
and reach over and scratch at the mountain which contains you, too ...I see a pinky reaching out from the mountain. It is yours.You reach over to me. To free me from my prison.Perhaps, not so long from now I will see your face.And we will dance on the beach, hair flying in the breeze. Seagulls screaming like sirens announcing our return.:-)
I am grateful I see that I am tethered to my computer and to my bowls of salad.
I am grateful for the spark of life which compels me to break free of anything which blinds me.
I am grateful for the courage to live this day without the collar of an inappropriate Man... not the One I am meant to serve.
I am grateful, so grateful, for the opportunity to live my life outloud. I love who I am. I love who I am becoming. I love this planet, its creatures and Mary Oliver!
I am grateful I ate the cabbage and carrots and cashews with dehydrated mushrooms and olive oil, sea salt ... I am grateful I noticed the way I wolfed this down and wondered if I will ever be cured of this hunger.
I am grateful for hope and the walk to Sacajawea tonight, and to the store with a friend, having not walked up there in months. Something had shut me down, perhaps that spell is now broken and I will be whole again.
My broken doll-self having reunited her pieces ... glued sutures were blended into tightly smoothed flesh.
I am grateful I did the dishes and I am grateful i recognize what a feral cat I have become.
I am grateful I have toes that long for luxury beneath my feet. Carpets, cushions, lighting and candles, chocolate elixirs with chaga is in my near future.
And I am grateful that the top of the list is "how do I want to make my money" that is the only really job I have saith Abraham, what do I want.
I am grateful Galen will discuss with me to be clear on all levels of engaging.

I am grateful that I realize MO is there and that if all else fails, If I never find the holistic Master I seek that he is there and may truly be the one.
But I am grateful that I have much work to do. I am grateful that I am to BE what I seek first.
I am grateful for Joy and all that she has managed to give me over the years even with how little we actually see one another. People are like that. A moment can be like eternal gold.
I am grateful I realize the importance to not fade away from this list. To keep going no matter how the feral cat in me wishes to hiss and retreat in fear. :-)
I am grateful I "came out" on facebook.

Hi everyone.

qt water
large diluted apple juice with psyllium
cup of yerba mate
plan: to go out and get some ripe banana and/or agave for my fixin's i have here. OR to try making the smoothie with what I already have here it might be taste enough I don't know.

I am grateful Mr A. released me last night ... even though it was painful and is confusing to be my own free agent, it really does make more sense. He apologized for being so selfish from long distance ...

Plan: green smoothie or a carrot soup.
a cacao elixir

I like this photo of my morning journal spot back in the day.
I am grateful for all the friends coming out of the woodwork
I am grateful and interested in how being the most open honest and authentic (not so much in a sloppy way, just in a concise way) brings so much more comments, attention and inquiries than "trying hard" ever did in the past.
I am grateful for this day to rest my hands ...
I am grateful for the sun may I get out in it.

god/dess dont know what PSU's lack of organization is or the ding dong girl at the desk I spoke with did with my application last week ... :( wow!!!!! It completely disappeared??? Well, glad I checked. Editors note: they found it and I am actively enrolled ... :-)

Probably have to walk down there again which is God's' way of saying it's good for me. I'm only a $100 away from having all the rent together for Dec. Cool.

Time for a gift certificate sale. pronto.

Free Gift: By giving me feedback: (what would you buy?) on your truly favorite services from the menu at the top of the page. I will give you a complimentary 15 minute massage at Rawprincess Studio in Goose Hollow. Enter your name in the comments below or email me cindy at skylightmassage dot com.

Gift Certificate SALE:

Hand-painted beautiful gift certificates in red envelope with gilded-sheer fluffy bows. Regularly $75 an hour, this offer ONLY is for gift certificates $25 for an hour massage which will be based on client's intake modality needs. Certificate valid through 2012. By appointment only. This is a therapeutic non-sexual licensed massage #11683 (Use PayPal button at top of right-hand sidebar this page.)

Tribal Thanksgiving, "Let's Get Personal" Updates, Taco Boat Dinner & The Works: Here

DJ Dragonfly (live mix) - Chillums, Champa...Sitars, Bass 'n Dub by djdragonfly
Shiva Rea sent this music via her newsletter ... hope you'll enjoy whilst perusing this lengthy but elegant post!

The  Babygirls
  Daughter enjoyed the "Nacho Refrito Boats" (farthest pic down)

Day 1 of Rawprincess Studio's Moon in Virgo 30-day Fitness Challenge walking along Oceanside Harbor with Mom. 

Thanksgiving at the Thomas C Chavez and Gabrielle Chavez's Grace Gardens in Oregon City.

Thanksgiving Weekend:

My situation was Mr A is not here and my children were at their dad's but I went to my raw vegan family dinner out at an organic farm at a home. It was a potluck style but I will list what I made and what I can remember. I actually made a video of it which you are more than welcome to view!

I made what I called "Apple Purity Bread Pudding"

A base of coconut cream folded into a Divine Organics Thai Coconut Sugar with Vanilla Cream Stevia (Sweetleaf brand) which was folded into some lightly blended dates and walnuts with whole walnut pieces, large coconut shavings, coconut oil, a vanilla pod (scraped the inside seeds out to use just the inner pod),and sea salt to taste. Into that I'd also placed a royal jelly / ginseng powder and lucuma powder.

I had prepared at the side, a large bowl of sliced apples which I'd mixed with fresh lemon juice and raw cinnamon powder. In that I'd placed an accent of goji berries which soon plumped up nice from the lemon juice. A little vanilla and just a dash of sea salt as well.

I then folded the first crumble mix into the apples and lightly pressed it all into a pyrex rectangular dish.  Refrigerated then cut into squares and served after drizzling the top with more coconut sugar and coconut oil and cinnamon. More walnuts could be used.

Very rich.

At the dinner there were "BBQ" kale chips, two kinds of kale salad, Nut Love w/BBQ sauce (yes, a take off of meat loaf :-)) collard wraps, cranberry swirl, portobello mushroom "gravy" (made by marinating portobellos first in olive oil and sea salt, then chopping them and dehydrating then blending half of them into water for an amazing gravy you can't tell is raw.) There was greens from the organic farm so they were very green and various textures, some wild weeds, some leafy. Much more. I have a YouTube on that here. The mashed potatos were delicious--made of blending cauliflour with cashews, olive oil and sea salt.

Also the name "Akita" should have really been Edith.

Other desserts were pumpkin chocolate squares, chocolate uncake, and more.

"On the road to fame, don't step on children." I say as I pan the group with the camera and almost trip over the young ones. Ha ha.

We had dinner and then the lady of the house who is also a minister of the church, Gabriel Chavez has a tradition of the walk on Thanksgiving Day. (It's called Christ the Healer (CtH) but is extremely progressive and eclectic--under the umbrella of the UCC churches which have done tons for example for GLBTQ support.) She led a two mile walk through the town or Oregon City which felt GREAT to go do! It was up and down hills with a great view of the river (Willamette?? I should know that.)

Afterward we all went back and I played guitar and sang, making up lyrics as I went about the apples and lemon juice and goji berries in my dessert. :-) It felt good to play for people. With my lifecoach it's come up that music is actually my primary purpose, and sharing it is really the most important gift to my tribes. ... so that was very cool since I haven't played in public since the open mikes in Minneapolis with (former) Master there.

I received a little Thai massage there in the middle of everything and also gave some bodywork to a friend in the midst of everyone and his pain completely vanished, plus I saw that it was his Gallbladder meridian which was screaming out at him. :-) Thomas C Chavez, author of Body Electronics (and Gabriel, the minister's husband) also confirmed the GB spots.

Then we had a traditional Durian opening. And if anyone wanted water it was spring water on the deck and you had to step outside for your water. There was an outdoor heat source there so it was really nice.

I filmed a bunch and then left, giving some neighbors a ride home. It was a beautiful dinner.

The next day I got my son for the day and we relaxed. My daughter went to a sleepover at a friends instead so I didn't see her this time. They will both be with  me for quite a few days including Christmas.

In joy~and~bliss being His

Refritos with "the works" including chickweed & avo, cashew sour cream, and Eric It's Alive! Green Smoothie Crackers.

Dinner is served.
Cindy's Apple Purity, Bishop's Vanilla Bean, Rose Cacao by Lulu (sp?)

Next Day: Nacho Boat Refritos on "Chips" for leftovers pleases even the most discerning of teenagers.

Refritos unFrijoles
sunflower seeds
favorite salsa

Soak sunflower seeds in water for at least two hours.
Blend with cumin and coriander and your favorite salsa.

This recipe was graciously texted to me the day a friend was coming over for dinner by Coach Cher Til! I want you to know that her ebook is ONLY filled with the most delicious and simplest of recipes. I think she prides herself in five ingredients or less. 

Her bean dip (here, above) was very popular at the hip rawkin' greeeen juice party which followed the Third Annual International Juice Feast Day in Seattle in September. Aw shucks where's that cool vid with me dancing and massaging the Raw Brah's ... Anyways her recipes are available here.

What ended up happening was, I ended up finding the "It's Alive" seeds here in Portland which are already soaked and dehydrated with spicy herbs added. I used those and a little bit of a garbanzo raw miso and it was delicious. I also blended with salsa as Cher said to.

Cashew Sour Cream

Soak cashews in water. Drain and rinse.

Blend in enough water to make sour cream texture with olive oil, sea salt and lemon juice, to taste.

Notes Fm A Foxhole

the yerba mate tea
some bites of "cookie dough" (coconut-base w/ walnut & date)
bites of carrot
more tea
coconut water
Plan: to go out and have some dinner at People's Food Coop

I am grateful I got the FAFSA submitted last night
I am grateful I got the second transcript request all in motion for PSU
I am grateful I have my late taxes in an envelope and I'm due a refund, though late and about to send overnight mail ...
I am grateful Mr M put the tags in the mail this a.m.
I am grateful I've pitched out several boxes of decades of saved greeting cards I've received.
I'm grateful that LE sort of veered away from me, and something doesn't feel 100% honest about what he was wanting. I think he wanted a client, not a project. Which would have been something to consider if he had been honest. The fact that he withheld the info lets me know I don't want to pursue, although I LOVE his photos! Dang, this or something better.
(I am grateful that since this writing LE and I have gotten clear and very hot photo shoot is in my future! One of his models has over 7 million hits on her website ...)
I am grateful I posted truth on my adult profile about my getting herpes at age 14 and that it's in remission for decades now, but that way it is up and I can forget about it.
I am grateful again, for the coaching session Tuesday and the reminder about the energy  nature of feminine. The egg waits. Things come to me. Sort of the opposite of marketing.

God/dess my hand hurts, I'm walking the line between doing things I'm attracted to and slight pushing to take care of errands I most want done like mailing the IRS return.
I am grateful for Mr A's phone calls each day.
I am grateful also putting on my profile about what M did this summer--without naming his name--and that I was open about it.
I am grateful for realizing that Michael is longterm and that he requires some TLC in some areas which I care about but don't have time or patience for.
But I'm grateful he is there for me
I am grateful Cody is going to take this bed out of here and hoping he can help with t he attic if he is skilled. I also need the Om Gym's hung so an O-ring from the ceiling and it needs to be done very skillfully. There is wiring in the ceiling.
I am grateful for the idea to ask N. a local rigger / artist for advice regarding that.
i am grateful that I saw through the first date's calling people "predators" at a gathering when I know darn well they are just full of life force and going after what th ey want shamelessly which I love about these so-called "predators" said date spoke of. And I am grateful I questioned his definition warmly. ...
Yay, H. is going to Africa.
I am grateful I put "no 420 please" on my FB page
I am grateful I am abou to put "no 420 please" on my FL page.
I am grateful I had dinner at home just now instead of out.
I am grateful I found apost office I can walk to right now.
I am grateful I can get more errands done tomorrow. I know I love staying home when I can ...

 Park Blocks With a friend

St Francis of Assisi Prayer
Lord, make me a channel of thy peace --
that where there is hatred, I may bring love --
that where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness --
that where there is discord, I may bring harmony --
that where there is error, I may bring truth --
that where there is doubt, I may bring faith --
that where there is despair, I may bring hope --
that where there are shadows, I may bring light --
that where there is sadness, I may bring joy.
Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted --
to understand, than to be understood -- to love, than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds. It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life. Amen.

--St. Francis of Assisi, 1181-1226

Friday, November 25, 2011

A New Delectable Rare Sugar, the Girl's, Comfort Food and Everything Else: Here!

From Andy Williams & Shanti Moon's Raw VeganThanksgiving Feast Class: Pumpkin PIe and Ice Cream, (11o'clock on plate) Hug-a-Turkey Nut Loaf,  Mashed Potatoes, Mushroom Gravy, Stuffing, Cranberry Dream, Winter Scones

I enjoyed the pumpkin pie and the ice cream made in a real ice cream maker with a coconut base, out of this world! This is the best pumpkin pie I've EVER tasted. Better than any cooked or raw. By Andy Williams. (Of "Year of Juice")
Some girls enjoy our weekly raw vegan refreshment w/ demo's here at RS and listening circle.

The demo today was "Coconut-Chia Goodgirl Smoothie"

Coconut-Chia Goodgirl Smoothie :-)

  • 3 c. coconut water
  • 1 c. large coconut flakes (unsweetened and soaked in coconut water several hours)
  • 4 T. chia seeds (soaked in coconut water w/ the coconut flakes)
  • 2 scoops Vega Sport performance protein
  • 2 rounded T. coconut oil (raw unrefined)
  • 6-7 drops Sweetleaf Vanilla Creme Stevia
  • pinch of cinnamon
  • pinch of sea salt

  1. Are you avoiding journaling?
  2. Have you avoided any quiet time?
  3. Have you avoided just walking?
When you stop the addiction feelings come up. When you journal, get still with yourself, just walk and observe nature's cues, the feelings come up. That's okay, they are leaving like a toxin ... take some time in the mirror to cry, truly cry ...

This "Crying Comes Up" video is, in a nutshell the message of Rawprincess Studio and in a nutshell a key way to end racism ... When you have unreleased emotions, it "looks like" racism to those around you.It looks snobby and elitist in a certain way and pushes people away from you. To soften one's edges, release the emotion with a warm relaxed listener who will not interrupt or give you advice. This indeed, softens the hard edges of the oppression which is the ONLY thing holding racism in place. Babies--before they are dipped and breaded and rolled and pan-fried in our world's unfortunate racist insidious conditioning; before they get it loud and clear that unfortunately there is this tragic BS they've been born into--LOVE everyone with few exceptions (scary people are merely ones with unreleased issues, right? :-)) our nature and birthright is to have close personal ties across many different lines: cultural, heritage, class, demographic and geographic nuances...

If you've watched the "Crying Comes Up" video (above this one) then you're ready for some comic relief. Watch "Cindy's Sugar Connection" here, (58 seconds long) The samples are $15 a jar and bulk orders are welcome for deeper cost effectiveness. Please just drop me a note and I will get you set up for the exchange. :-) (Commenting here is fine. I get these messages instantly.Or email me cindy at skylight massage dot com)

black coffee, some water
Lunch: stuff (I won't have time to overeat so I'm safe ha ha)
Tonight: making din din for my new BF (local!!!)

I am grateful for a shift since Mr A worked with me on some stress relief focuses this weekend!!!
I am grateful for the amazing raw vegan annual home Thanksgiving dinner at the Chavez's in Oregon City!!
I am grateful I loved the dessert I made for the dinner and I have leftovers to share with Michael this evening.
I am grateful the obsession to eat everything in the house or the vicinity has been lifted and that lot of it has to do with connection and even the stress relief techniques and care from Mr A via long distance!!
I am grateful for coach Lori and how she is totally the kind to encourage me to show up and share my gifts on the web--AS IS-- not wait for some perfect day.
I am grateful for Harvey Jackins and the five plus years I spent with his community--one of his sayings which stuck first and foremost within me is I will not hold back on my contacts. Harvey had hundreds and hundreds of very close friends all around the world--some of which he would only see once a  year or even less--but they wrote back and forth, visited for workshops, had listening exchanges (sometimes just a few minutes long but were extremely key and personal) ... I gleaned that and I am noticing throughout the course of a day I have contact with probably hundreds of folks. But this is not a stretch to me. Contrary. I see that i can have hundreds and even thousands of close friends whom I touch in with in a very personal and loving way and we are touchstones to eachother's growth ... we are aware of eachother, we would consider each other dear friends and in a pinch that person is family, we know that about each other. So I am grateful for Harvey Jackins ability to see that and share that as a counseling direction.
"I will not hold back on my contacts."

I am grateful for a phone "mini-session" with Randy just now and the reminder within myself that I actually want to enroll in PSU to get my bachelor's degree ... an English / graphic arts focus ... they have a new athletic center and one of the top 30 libraries in the country ...
I am grateful my son is here and Icovered him with his old baby blanket which reminded us to think where I got that blankie which prompted me to seek the lady out and send a friend request on FB --havent seen her in years and wasn't sure how to get in touch.
I am grateful for the pepperminty feeling of the toothpaste in my mouth right now.

God/dess I am grateful for Michael arranging for me to prepare him a raw vegan meal--how brilliant. I am grateful for his idea: he is atheist and non-vegetarian but has these deep political passions and engages in conversation regularly within various online communities which I find attractive. He also met me downtown for a walk and was very relaxed, reading a book, when I jogged up a little late ... no cell phone! Yes, he does not use a cellphone and he took public trans to meet me.. Love that slow-down and be in this place feeling.

Thought for the Day: I will not hold back on my contacts.

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Monday, November 21, 2011

Service Book of Days - Week of Nov 21-27

Service Book of Days - Week of 11/14/11

· Outside my my beloved trees. They stand almost audibly and perceptibly with arms outstretched ... their presence seems to hold me and listen to my innermost longings.

· my thoughts...   how the heck to get these beds up in the attic ...

· Today's Quote... "And Madonna, she still has not showed We see this empty cage now corrode" Bob Dylan
· i am thankful for... my coworkers and my bosses--wonderful!!

· From my service training... Restraint for Him brings rewards of heightened senses!

· From the kitchen... A fruit salad mixed w/ maca and lucuma, coconut oil and nectar ...topped with cacao sauce ...

· i am wearing...Lululemon tightly fitting yoga pants, a tiny stone in the hip pocket which wards off negative energy loaned by a coworker and a Lululemon halter yoga top underneath my work uniform and silver large hoop earrings

· i am movies, songs on my guitar, poems

· my adventures this week... I met two Men in person

· Becoming well read... Kingsbridge (the manuscript soon to be released Amazon kindle) by Orpheus

· i manifest and co-create... an amaaaazing edible raw vegan yummy product which will rawk Portland and keep cindy in abundance!!

· Todays Melody... Visions of Johanna by Bob Dylan (soon to be my cover, watch for YouTube version :-))

· One of my favorite things... When the dogs would run in from the woods having raced through the sage brush ...their lovely smell, can't get enough.

· further plans for this week... a large Thanksgiving unturkey dinner with my CtH family out at Oregon City ...the kids over the next morning Yay!! The attic has some progress begun! Yay!


"Busted" A For Sure Way To Stop Emotional Eating NOW!

Hi, I'm Cindy, the creator of "Busted" the film below on the surefire way to end emotional late night eating and run a half marathon by May. :-)

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Late-Night Licorice Root Sucking ...

Happiness? A good cigar, a good meal, a good cigar and a good woman - or a bad woman; it depends on how much happiness you can handle.
--George Burns
 You could say I have issues. I know I'm not alone on this. I would do the tongue patch but have seen it as a temporary solution to oral fixation. Here, shown, I have a bonafide licorice root. No, I don't light it. I put it in my mouth and just savor it.

I've been looking for the whole licorice roots for years now. I used to use them as a way to focus my oral sensations without eating tons of calories. Everyone seems to sell them in chunks now, for teas.  The People's Food  Co-op in SE Portland has them in the herb section in bulk. Oh yeah!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

My Home Series In My First Paid Personal Coach Lifestyle Unheaval Pt 2

You won't want to miss my "Before" Video of my Home and Studio Space!

The SGFPDX (slavegirl-figure Portland) group met in the produce section this week as the Rawprincess Studio was under ahem, construction ... :-) We walked a mile together and got FOCUSED on our wellness!! We also have some ideas for a high protocol dinner and fundraising efforts for greens and blenders for at-risk members. Yay!!

As some of you know, I'm in coaching. I don't want to NOT mention quite a few people who I feel are totally transformative to me and valuable and it COULD have been any of them who I ended up paying to coach me. I actually have been in their paid GROUP coaching classes lately and LOVED them. I am STILL followers and believe they led me to distinguish LORI as my current cosmically aligned personal coach for the coming year at least!!

My must NOT to be missed life and wellness energy workers / coaches are: Namaste Moore of Academy of Human Arts, Shakaya Leone of Earth Empress the Beauty Cleanse, (Earth Empress is about to start the regular raw cleanse so make sure to find her) Kiu Imandel's Juice feast, Gabriel and Thomas C Chavez's Body Electronics and The Compass Way programs. Angela Stokes-Monarch's Raw Emotions book and her blog Raw Reform ...

I mention these people ALL my support system but am also extremely happy and pleased to be accepted into a coaching relationship with this dynamic, authentic, powerful, smart, electric, gorgeous, fit and healthy person as well ...

And, I'm BIASED even further now because I am being coached by *drum rolls drum rolls drum rolls*

Lori Painter of 

Fun, yes, clearing clutter does open space to create and bring in something more authentic, in line with your dreams!!  This stainless counter, previously filled with clutter, is now freshly wiped and has a small tray of fruit and daily staples.

If you watched the before video (link at top of post) you can see I have done my dishes and added IKEA chef -style racks. I love them! As I peel away 80% of my belongings (Lori inspired) and ADD better shelving and functionality in each room, life gets real FUN plus I have ROOM to create and be happy! :-)

I was helping my daughter with math homework a few nights and it actually allowed me the company I sometimes need to complete a project. All planets aligned and I got these stainless steel racks up. Nice.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

"Before" Video of My Space & Notes Fm A Foxhole

Notes From A Foxhole Part 2

black coffee
kale salad
coconut sap (moderate amount) with lucuma and allspice

I am grateful for getting a ton of trash, recycling and goodwill loads out yesterday and today.
I am grateful for the surprise that my daughter is flunking math and that I have been helping her the past two days with math. I have missed feeling needed on this planet.
I am grateful she started learning with my  help about fractions and that later she told me I rock.
I am grateful for holding her while she cried in frustration where she got stuck.

God/Goddess I did well today on several counts and I appreciate that I may not be a hopeless basket case after all. I know I know. I just actually really cannot see it sometimes. That's just honest. I'm not trying to affirm it, I just got sooooooo sooooo low. Talking to my first husband from years ago on the phone. I wish there was a miracle that could heal him after how he has abused his body so much for so long that he now has COPD ... and his other previous wife told me she is afraid he won't last through the winter. Please dear god help him heal. I thank you for the grace that I myself did not abuse my body that badly for that long but it still doesn't take away the bitter stinging tears of wanting him to live. I thank you for the dream where he vividly came to me the night before and for the bumblebee and the lady bug in the house just then. I thank you for my friends. And ask for the bumps in the road I sense intuitively with JK in SF be merely that. I have a difficult time following his suggestions for me as they seem so remote and nonsensical. Yet, I also see the truth in them: Yes, I do need intimate touch regularly. But I don't see myself doing that casually--yuck! So, commitment and communication ... then that means finding the right person locally ... after Mr Markgraf and how he completely took care of me and supported me body mind spirit as well as cared deeply and contributed to education and my professional development as well as my creative endeavors and community building efforts--after THAT person I'm not at all atracted to just giving myself over to someone who has NO immediate supportive gestures my way. Thank you for the ones who do and who stay in touch. Why Goddess are they all long distance? Portland is indeed among the most progressive of places and yet the community is still quite small ...

God grant me the serenity. If I can hear what the angels are saying, if I can hear what you are saying to me. If I can disconnect and be still long enough (from chatter online, from chatter of my  mind) to listen and that you won't abandon me and give up on how long it takes me to accomplish the simplest of tasks, Master, Lord, I ask for time. Time with Richard before he dies. TIme and oxygen for his lungs. Please.

I only try to do what's healthy for me and how that serves the world. And now I  know that I need time alone... yet if I go crazy of loneliness I also get nothing accomplished. Thank you I had my greens. Thank you I didn't overspend today. Thank you I have cleared all food out of the house and that I have accepted I have a disease and I cannot keep it in the house.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

A Spooky Treat and 1st Reiki Attunement / Raw Vegan Potluck Invitation

Berry Scary Maca-Choca Fudge Bars

With Eye of Newt ...

(Well, Eye Food POW-der from eclectic INSTITUTE)
Berry Scary bottom layer:
  • 1/2 mill Goji Raw Trail Mix (Goji, Pepita, Nuts)
  • 2-3 T Eye Food POW-der (eclectic INSTITUTE) fresh freeze dried
  • 2T Coconut oil
  • Lots of agave nectar
  • pinch sea salt or pink salt
  • 5 drops choc raspberry stevia (Sweetleaf)
  • 3-4 T maca pwdr


Filling 1:
  • cacao bliss
  • coconut oil
  • agave

Filling 2:

Grind your own hempseeds (needs to be a little sticky so use agave or coconut oil.)


  • coconut oil
  • agave
  • cacao pwdr
  • maca pwdr
  • sea salt
  • vanilla extract

How to:

Grind the Goji Berry Trail Mix up in a vitamix, dry bowl or a coffee grinder until loosely ground with some granules left ...
Stir with the Eye Food POW-der, coconut oil, agave and sea salt, stevia drops.

Press onto a plate.

For filling #1 In a double boiler slightly warm the Cacao Bliss (brand name) and coconut oil stirring in agave. While still thick, spread on the Berry Scary layer and put in the freezer to harden.

Filling #2 Press freshly ground hempseeds on top of the bottom layer. Use something sticky to hold hemp together.

Topping: In double boiler melt coconut oil until liquid. Stir in agave nectar, cacao pwdr, maca pwdr, sea salt and vanilla ... Dissolve by whisking all together.

Pour the topping over the firmed up bottom layers and freeze all. It will drip off the sides of your shaped slab, that's okay! :-)

After firming, slice into small squares and arrange on a pretty platter.

My picture here, shows some of the chunks of coconut oil in the Berry Scary layer never stirred in but that's okay too, usually. Very rich.

Hey, this is work safe and quite popular!!

Happy Halloween !!!

Listening, receptive hands and the magnetic positve-negative charge with the hands. Now I will have the "Ray" and direct Love flow OUT of the hands. It's all about intention!!! :-)
Reiki First Attunement With Gabrielle Chavez December 10

I have done energy work for a long time. I use my hands in two basic ways. The Polarity Therapy intention where right hand is outgoing or positive charge (like a magnet) and the left hand is receptive or negative charge. This is to stimulate the client's magnetic energy field flow, not to invade it just a little push!

The second way has been a listening with the hands for craniosacral. The hands also receive the client's "story" and the release of stress or shock and trauma just drips off down the practitioner's elbows, as the nervous system downshifts... the hands are both in receptive mode but actually let the client's discharge (like a static charge, invisible but thick and sharp at times) flow off and down into the earth for recycling.

As I was explaining this to a fellow energy worker, my hands were on her ankles and each time I described an intention she said she could totally feel the whole shift in her body!

The third way I described to her--and the one I am now ready to learn--is Reiki! I had always actually avoided receiving an attunement because of the intention of the magnetic / positive-negative stimulation I'd been using for so long. I thought they would conflict. I also felt uncomfortable "putting" anything "into" my client's energy field and just accepted that was not my path.

What changed?

Reading the Anastasia books, something really clicked I knew that just as I could switch back and forth from magnet to listening, I could just as easily move my intention, when appropriate, to "RAY" mode.

I felt that it actually IS very important that I DO receive the attunements at this time in history. I feel it is part of a definite shift in planetary consciousness. Raising and awakening.

Sooo as I observed the healing work Gabrielle Chavez does and I realized she does attunements, I asked her the other night if she would give me the attunement and we set up the organizational structure.

There will be at least five people. Everyone is invited. You don't have to be part of the raw vegan community to sign up for this. It will be in the cob kiva on the beautiful property in Oregon City ... we will have a raw vegan potluck for lunch afterward and the cost is $35.

This will be the First Level Reiki and we will, after practicing for the recommended amount of months, organize a Mastery workshop and second level attunement.

Comment here or at the Meetup site to RSVP. Space is limited.

When December 10, Saturday
10 am to 12 pm

Bring a plant-based uncooked dish or prepared produce. If you have questions comment here or at the Meetup site, linked above. Thank you.

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Friday, October 28, 2011

Pear-Chia-Vega Spells Delight

Pear Chia Vega Delight

2 c coconut water
2 T chia seeds (soaked for at least 10 min in coconut water first)
1 frozen banana
1 lusciously ripe pear
1 scoop Vega Sport natural plant-based performance protein, vanilla
1 rounded T hempseed
1 T coconut oil
5 drops vanilla stevia drops (Sweetleaf is great)
a few drizzles of agave (optional)
a tiny pincy of sea salt (optional)
a few drops of vanilla extract or bean scrapings if you have it. (optional)

Blend until creamy. This is almost magical.

I've been feeling really energized lately when using the Vega products. Now, unfortunately I don't believe they are 100% raw--and I'm probably going to go with Healthforce and Sun Warrior next time I buy. But I didn't realize they weren't raw when I bought them on sale. Delicious and great for transition.
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Thursday, October 27, 2011

Raw Gossip & Gush / "Girl With A View" Daily Digest


Ahh much better. 
I can't believe how much better I am feeling and I THINK it's the Vega vegan protein drink thingies .. and a little more sleep a little more exercise (just a little mind you) and also my body always thanks me when I eat light, even if I eat a big bowl of it. :-) Might be the massages I've been getting, also. 

(And the B12 which my Coach Dave the Raw Trucker emphatically suggested when I had nooooo energy etc etc).

My sister extraordinaire, Kim Cummins, the ever and still "inspiring2act," Lori Painter of and me. Okay, would you believe that Kimmie works around the block from Lori? Yes. Okay so listen, Lori is leading an Emotional Fitness Challenge right now. November will be an Intuitive Challenge to DO NOW all those quirky but great things your own inner voice keeps getting drowned out trying to tell you. Time to listen. 
Her family thought she was absolutely nuts. Lori told us about that time in her life when she was initially tuned majorly into Intuition. The voices in her head had her lighten up her household clutter by about 80%, she lightened up her body clutter to the total cutest (see super cute bikini pic here) and even avoided freeway collisions by listening and not procrastinating to her Intuition. It's a literal voice which caused her to write books at 3am ... Both my sister and I immediately knew we have our voice also and could recall, unfortunately, ignoring it in recent past. My (this) blog will follow Lore's intuitive challenge--watch her get her own intuitive groove on--as well as December's Give It All Away Challenge ... this is when you (and I) get the zen house we always wanted but were too chicken to toss the junk out.

You've got to be teachable. Ask me, I'd have told you I don't need Dara Dubinet's Liquids Only DVD because I'd argue I know it all. Wrong! I LOVED her simple soup recipe using basically carrots, water, coconut oil and a top secret ingredient that I had never laid eyes on in my life!!! Incidentally, I made this in a low-powered blender so it never really got creamy as we all know a Vitamix will do. Yet, it was still deemed delicious and disappeared by the anonymous tastees onhand.
The charismatic Dave the Raw Food Trucker who released over 200 pounds while driving truck, myself and the handsome AND talented Chef Francisco at I think they make the best bruschetta. I think the delicious Ecopolitan needs to lay off the balsamic and some of the onions ... If I recall I really liked the wheatgrass, the kale chips, the raw pizza, the different breads were unique and impeccable.
 ""...I am willing to do that even if I never meet someone again who begins to match what I had, then I will write forever memoir after memoir and poem after poem about Mr M. I will write songs to him and create collages and drawings in honor of the love we had. That's okay. I am willing. And that willingness is what is setting me free to LIVE again. It's setting me free to be happy. It's setting me free to be a good mom...."
Dan the LifeRegenerator was such a high vibration that all the children used him as a human jungle gym during our dance party at the Third International Juice Feast Day. He also spun around on the floor in quite an impressive show of coordination and litheness. (See this in the video at bottom of  this page.) It was my very first time to meet him and he is just as real as his videos portray. That IS the real him. His daughters were absolutely clear lights shining on this planet. I am now a shameless fan. Shown here: the studio which has a stellar hot reputation for parties--Urban Lights--which Bill Barlow rented for our impromptu greeeeeeen juice extravaganza which was open to the public and catered by Thrive ... also Chef Cher Til made me very happy when she made sunflower seed "refried beans" yes!!!
The Raw Brahs lit up the entire energy of the greeeen party, the documentary, the dancing AND the Third International Juice Feast Day in Seattle, September 2011: l to r: Daniel "Danimal" Eisenman, Nathanael Eisenman, me and Timothy Eisenman

Lucky me--Yay!--with Penni Shelton of I was an original guinea piglet at the Mansion and am in her book Raw Cleanse ... today her online community boasts over 7,000 members. She told me and Bill Barlow at Dinner at Chaco Canyon that "Cindy has been under the radar too long. It's her time to shine." Penni ate like a bird. But she ordered one of each for everyone to share at the table. She seemed to inspire guys with flexing biceps wherever we went. :-)
Bill Barlow knows how to think on his feet and throw a HOT PARTY!! (And don't miss his next one!) Yes, after the documentary shoot for Dave the Raw Trucker's International Juice Feast Day in Seattle, Barlow merely rented the entire Urban Light Studio for a greeen juice fest which was broadcasted by invites to the entire population of Seattle and surrounding areas: (Aw shucks you have to see me in this vid massaging the Raw Brah's fine bods towards the end...) Such a partyin' gentleman!!! His life celebration is in Los Angeles next month, no expense spared... You will have to search for The Rawprincess on Facebook to see the pics of me on his lap. He was an innocent bysitter but didn't put up much of a fight.
Ms Painter ordered the avocado salad on mixed mesclun greens. I had the side salad as Au Lac was my  next destination. Lori carries the book Power Vs Force in her bag--which has the words "United Nations Advisory Board" on the side (or something like that.) The bag was a gift to her by some famous person. Lori also travels light with her iPad and a portable keyboard. She's all about Lightening It Up. She wore adorable blue jeans and a tank top with just a touch of make up. My sister, Kim wore a Hawaiin print fitted dress and ordered the fruit salad with yogurt. Lori and I agreed there was no judgment on Kim's choices.

I made a cacao hempseed mylk in the blender out of what I can find onhand, you know me. In this case that means coconut oil was involved.

From my confidential email newsletter.

Ahh much better.
I can't believe how much better I am feeling and I THINK it's the Vega vegan protein drink thingies .. and a little more sleep a little more exercise (just a little mind you) and also my body always thanks me when I eat light, even if I eat a big bowl of it. :-)
Might be the massages I've been getting, also.

qt water
smoothie: pear, bananas, Vega matcha, chia gel .
kale, mixed greens salad w/ red bell pepper, carrot and avocado ... grapes/oranges.
plan: chocolate Vega more grapes, green tea
Later: who knows, the sky is the limit.

Editors Note : 11:30pm Ended up working OUT FINALLY A FOR REAL WORKOUT HONESTLY!!! The rest have been so wimpy for sooo long! I am so excited. I did it! I have depended sooo much on Mr M and now I finally have got a taste of being close to myself. I realized during the Sacred Feminine Intensive Live Chat tonight that I can stay very close in the present moment to myself and what I'm feeling... also your posts today (I had started this post in the morning and kept adding to it all day long until now it's late at night.) your posts about having anxiety but that eating doesn't help it. ... And I realized that staying very close to my somatic resourcing--it's as simple as noticing the sensation of the edges of my skin and how the weight of my gravity feels, and how the sensation of my clothing feels touching my skin ... and then loving that sensation and loving the robotic habit of reaching for something to eat instead of reaching to participate in my life.

I ended up having a few bites of the cacao bliss in a jar. I had some coconut water and a tsp of goji trail mix before my workout. I ran 1.6 miles in 20 minutes, I lifted weights for 15 minutes ... dead lifts  and lunges with 20lbs in each hand, then arms ... I feel great. I spent a bunch of money. I really got what I wanted because I had the cash and decided I need to make some money somehow for the attic now. It's a little complicated. I decided to blog publicly on my spending while I'm also blogging on the fitness challenge.

I am grateful for the recovery here ...
I am grateful for my progress!!
I am grateful for agreeing to meet D.A. for coffee soon. He has been inquiring about me to Mr A since five months ago and we said no. But now I'm realizing that the distance with Mr A is quite a lot and I really genuinely was excited about D.A.
I am grateful LE was a little more confiding in me in his last message.
I am grateful that his slow responses alert me to his attitude--which is not eager enough for my liking.
I am grateful I got another massage today and I think I'm feeling better.
I am grateful for the new moon in Scorpio.
I am grateful for the live chats on the Sacred Feminine Intensive 101 ... and the closeness today with the girls.
I am grateful I think I will actually stop by the gym tonight after work.
I am grateful I'm bringing my manager brekky tomorrow.
I'm grateful for my WORKOUT!! Yipeeee. I'm grateful for a couple of young athletic guys who want to run and workout with me, that's very cool.
I'm grateful that their attention really gets me motivated and I feel I must keep my word when I say I'm really working out today.
I'm grateful that I'm going to be serving at a High Protocol Dinner the Saturday after this.
I'm grateful for Tera Warner's Body Enlightenment summit which is Soooo Cool for girls like us. She so gets it!!! I love her summit but I haven't joined it, not sure I'm going to be able to choose that, due to time commitment and due to finance choices.

God/dess today you have reached through to me and given me myself back. I feel myself loving myself and being willing to pay attention and be here with me. I felt myself being ever so sensitive as I am. I felt myself cry hard because I didn't know what to do about never having been loved as intensely and as deeply and as closely and as dramatically as Mr M loved me. But I told myself I have to let go of my selfish grief now. I don't want anyone to misunderstand this. This is healthy for me. I don't want anyone to say, "Oh but Cindy you need to grieve yadda yadda..." because I HAVE BEEN grieving and it has become wallowing. I actually realized that I HAVE TO BE WILLING to be of service on this planet REGARDLESS of whether I EVER find a Love as intense and as beautiful as what Mr M and I shared. I AM WILLING NOW, right NOW to be there for my kids and my mom and my sisters and my nephew and my clients and Mr A. and I am WILLING to listen to my INTUITIVE voice and DO what it says.

I am grateful for the glimpse that being willing to simply BE with things just the way they are and to simply LET GO of the pain I'm holding because I'm So Afraid of letting all the way go of Mr M. But it's TIME to let go of Mr M. He deserves to be happy and to get on with his life. It is TIME for ME to let go of Mr M because I have left him and all I'm holding so tightly to is my own pain which is  NOT going to love me, is only holding me back.

I can see a vision of myself loving myself. I can see a vision of myself taking care of myself I can see a vision of myself being content like a cat by the window in the sunlight, and I can see a vision of myself paying attention to myself and thereby being present for those I am in service to. I can see LOVE bigtime in that.

And I am willing to do that even if I never meet someone again who begins to match what I had, then I will write forever memoir after memoir and poem after poem about Mr M. I will write songs to him and create collages and drawings in honor of the love we had. That's okay. I am willing. And that willingness is what is setting me free to LIVE again. It's setting me free to be happy. It's setting me free to be a good mom.

That willingness is setting me free to face this moment without my mouth full of food.

Dave the Raw Food Trucker saved his life by releasing food addiction, following two students advice and juicing for almost a year, losing 200lbs and reversing fourth stage colon cancer, diabetes, his kidneys were leaking proteins and failing ... You can read his juicing secrets in his e-pamphlet coming soon!

Below: I'm dancing it up to Tom Jones at the greeen juice party and video for NEXT YEAR'S JUICE FEAST DAY below!!! Hey Colonics Party too!

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